My Journey

So, if you have time for an interesting read - here is the start of my story.  As you read, I pray that God will give you an open mind and an accepting Spirit as you receive this testimony.  With God all things are possible and the same love, trust and acceptance placed in my heart can help you in whatever you may be facing today.  Out of my experiences I pray and ask God that somehow I can be used as a blessing to spread the Good News and be of help to women of all ages, backgrounds, cultures, and abilities. I started off in a typical family with two parents and siblings.  Nothing really spectacular to mention so I'll cut to the chase.  There were abuses of several different kinds going on in the home.  I remember telling my mother about it, but nothing was done.  So, I guess in a child's mind - you do the best with what you have and try to live a "normal" life.  If you are a Christian and believe in good and evil, then you can begin to understand at this point how generational curses of evil can be passed down through a family.  This is in fact so if you read this scripture

John 10:10

The thief (devil) cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

Now, let's go forward to my teen years.  Whew!  I rebelled in my own ways.  My way was to follow my heart and date someone my parents did not approve of.  To say the least, our home was not that happy.  My family was struggling at this time in matters of the heart.  I could tell the home as I knew it would not last.  Eventually, it came to be that after seventeen years of marriage, my parents divorced.  After the divorce I experienced my own personal ups and downs.  I refer to this as my "roller coaster years".  I continued to do as I pleased in my own life and it always ended up in strife.

I eventually joined the Army and felt that I had a purpose in my life.  I did quite well throughout my career and even served in the first gulf war.  For the first time, I was able to experience what life is like in another country and how the people lived.  To say the least, I have more respect now than I ever have for all those who served in the military before me.  So, while I served in the desert-I had a sexual harassment incident occur.  I reported it through my chain of command and nothing was done.  In fact, after I reported the incident the harassment was worse and came from other soldiers who thought they could get away with it also.  This incident along with other issues going on as a result of the deployment itself; completely changed me as a person.  In some respects, I was changed in good ways but in other areas I was not changed for the best.  As I reflect now on this time of my life, I can see how I continued (or was too blind to see) how evil had now started to control other aspects of my personal character and who I decided to become.

** As a side note - if you ever have a chance, please take a moment to understand what it means to serve your country in its time of need - only to be treated as if you were unimportant. **

Here is a link to   Invisible War

After we returned from the desert I attempted to commit suicide for the first time in my life.  It was a hard time for me and I had been invited to attend a church service, so I went. This is when I experienced receiving the Holy Spirit and began speaking in tongues.  I had no idea why I spoke in tongues or for what purpose, but I do know it was life changing for me.  I continued to attend a few more services and a couple of bible studies but decided I wasn't ready to commit my life to going back to church.  I eventually got out of the service and returned to civilian life.

I wasn't living a Christian life, still making all the wrong choices.  I eventually met my second husband.  I can say with joy in my heart that we have been married almost sixteen years now. We are a blended family and have five children all together.  I had all but given up on meeting a good and decent man to share my life with and then along came a man different then anyone else I had ever met.  (You know God truly works in mysterious ways).

Now, please do not think my life turned into a bed of roses once I met my second didn't. I was so used to taking care of myself, being independent, and controlling-that no one was going to tell me what to do.  Okay, here is another mistake on my part in not recognizing how evil was once again trying to stealkill, and destroy what God had placed in my life.

1 Corinthians 11:2-3:

I praise you because you remember me in everything, and you follow closely the teachings just as I gave them to you.  But I want you to understand this: The head of every man is Christ, the head of a woman is the man, and the head of Christ is God.

So, if you have decided to read the rest of my I said I had a stubbornness about me that I was unwilling to let go.  I tried reading up and applying all the newest concepts out there to "fix" this or that particular circumstance going on in my life. It just seemed like nothing in the "world" was working.  Other problems came up throughout the years of continued disobedience to God, because I hadn't turned Him. So, throughout the course of this portion of my life there were many evil manifestations that led to an almost total and complete destruction of not only myself, but all those around me.  I did not have the Bible in my life.  I had refused to go to church and be with others who thought they had the right to judge me.  I didn't even really want to hear what anyone had to say about anything...especially those who were trying to help.  I was doing my best to block God out of my life completely.Then there came the moment of decision for me on a personal level.  I had reached a point of complete and utter hopelessness.  I simply wanted all of the sorrow taken away.  I needed a light to shine in my darkest hour.  I used what little faith I had left and called out to God in my moment of need.  I was able to hear His voice as I prayed in my mind to the Lord to save me from myself.  I can testify that God truly will not give you more than you can bear.  God's power, grace, mercy, and love worked through me by the gift of the Holy Spirit.  Through these benefits of being a child of God, He showed me the way of continuing my life instead of ending it.So, to this day I thank God for the good and bad things that have happened to me.  I know that He will turn my sorrows into something positive and good, because God is love.  God will never forsake me.  I was baptized in the name of Jesus in May of 2013 and my life has never been the same.  Those who I come into contact with can see the difference in my life.  God is truly amazing and wonderful!  I have never experienced such joy, peace, happiness, comfort and love like I do now.

I want to use what God has blessed me with to help and be a blessing to others.  I want you to know matter who you are...God has a plan for you despite whatever it is that you have done.  I stand firm in stating that there is a Godly design for your life.  Why??  Look at it this way...if you have already done all that you can think of to "fix" the situation you are in...why not look at what the Bible says.  Recognize that throughout time and all of history that God has always reigned true.  Just imagine what God has in store for you!  Thank you for allowing me to share my testimony with you.

Proverbs 19:21 - People can make all kinds of plans, but only the Lord's plan will happen.

About the Author: I am a 43 yo mother of 5 beautiful children, and a grandmother of 3 grandbabies!  I came to know Jesus, my personal Lord and Savior in May of 2013.  Since that time, many wonderful and miraculous blessings have occurred in my life. Follow my very interesting and fascinating journey with Jesus!  NLD is a women's outreach/ministry program ran through the Jesus Saves Pentecostal Church in Warrensburg, MO.  Please consider sharing whatever you can to help other women needing a hand up in their new walk with Christ.  God bless!