As I sat in the briefing, I wondered why my coworker was being acknowledged for the work I had done? Does he not know that it was my actions that led to this point of recognition? Surely my manager must know it was me. I left the briefing that morning with many questions swarming my thoughts. I said within myself, he must really hate me. Once again, I had allowed his disrespect towards me hurt my feelings. Yes, many incidents over the years occurred where my manager had more opportunities to overlook the work I had done. He spared no chance to show how much he disliked me. Even my coworkers and other managers noticed, but it made no difference to him.
Feelings of rejection sat on my chest like a heavy stone. This feeling I had was all too familiar and I hated feeling this way. Rejection is an ugly enemy who seeks every opportunity to arrest its victims' emotions and hold them hostage, bound in chains, for days, months, even years if allowed. It takes up residence in the soul of a man like an unwanted house guest that refuses to leave. Unfortunately, the incidents with my boss were not my first go-round with this enemy. No, it had me bound through years of childhood misfortunes, dating catastrophes, and well into adulthood.
I can't exactly pinpoint when I began to recognize the spirit of rejection and thus began my daily fight to overcome the enemy of my soul. How did I fight this enemy? I began reading scriptures about who God says I am:
I am chosen by God (Eph 1:4)
I am accepted in the Beloved (Eph. 1:6)
I am seated in heavenly places in Christ Jesus (Eph. 2: 5)
I am rooted and grounded in love (Eph. 3:17)
I am more than a conqueror (Rom. 8:37)
I am an overcomer (Rev. 12:11)
I am God's workmanship (Eph. 2:10)
The list above is only a short list of reminders of who we are in Christ Jesus. The bible tells us we are so much more. Merriam Webster's online dictionary defines rejection as "a refusal to confirm the truth of a statement". In contrast, if we are listening to the enemy of rejection, we are refusing to confirm the truth of who God's Word says we are. I stopped denying who I am in Christ Jesus and learned to confess who I am in Him. As a reminder, whenever I feel rejection rearing its ugly, venomous head, I Look Up to God and remind myself that He is my reward. I no longer need the accolades of man.
Yes, sometimes it would be nice to be recognized for the hard work we do. However, ultimately, God is enough! He is our reward and no one can ever love us or accept us enough more than Him. He gave us the ultimate reward when He gave His only begotten Son to die on the cross for us that we may have eternal life with Him. And not only do we have heaven to look forward to, but we can enjoy life more abundantly while on earth when we are totally dependent on Him.
Like any good daddy, our Daddy God loves to bless us! In addition, Looking Up to Him removes all fear and replaces it with peace. I would rather have the peace of God in any situation than be the richest ruler in the world. For there is nothing like trusting Him and resting in His peace. His peace is not temporal like the peace the world may give you, but it is eternal...whew!
(Excuse me while I praise Him...hallelujah!)
Well, I suppose I should tell you that after almost 11 years of service with my job, I resigned one month ago. I felt the Lord telling me it was finally okay to leave and that He would take care of me. He has kept His Word! I have been trusting Him, day by day, week by week, and He has come through for me every single time. In conclusion, the next time you are feeling rejected...Look Up! God is your reward! Don't depend on man to take care of you, to make you feel accepted, to fill the empty void in your life. It will only lead to shame and have your head bowed down low. God will never disappoint or let you down. Remind yourself of who you are in Christ Jesus! And reject the negative thoughts and words the enemy feeds you.
Please read Psalm 121 for encouragement.
May His love overwhelm you,
About the Author: Hi. I'm Marilyn Jernigan. I'm a divorced mother of 3 adult children and the most beautiful grandchild in the entire earth. I have a Master's of Business Administration and a Bachelor's of Business Management. I recently resigned from my job of 11 years with the federal government. I'm very passionate about pro-life and serve at the Crisis Pregnancy Center in my town. I spend my time exercising, serving at my church, traveling, and spending as much time as possible with my granddaughter. You can find me on the church at http://marilynjernigan.com/