When I woke today, I thought about my journey in life, fibromyalgia, my being where I’m at now, with such definition, clarity, peace, and understanding of God’s truth. What came from that was how glad I was that Yahweh was a jealous and righteous God. Sounds odd that I’d be glad he was a jealous God, but you have to understand what that means, as I have come to understand it. Human nature, I reiterate, is not naturally sugar, spice and everything nice. Just watch kids, early on at play and it can get vicious very quickly, but yet there is also this vulnerable side that can melt your heart, that puts them at risk for harm. The complexity of being a physical corruptible being in this fallen world of sin, of humanist and such philosophies is to say the least on a day to day basis “OYE!”. As the heavenly Father and creator of all things, Yahweh knows this better than anyone and how Lucifer works, how he uses deception of humanism and “I don’t really exist, neither does God, or no evil is just a man made construct, forget all that” tricks to bring us to perdition. As a protective Father, Yahweh is thankfully very jealous and protective to keep me, you, all those who would be willing to come to him, in Christ, and have the indwelling of the Holy Spirit to grow in discernment and so much more in Christ, relationship to the Father, and in the Son, through the Holy Spirit, from a life and pattern of rebellion and sin. He knows that rebellion against his boundaries and such will cause me pain, so he is jealous to keep me under his wing and from Satan, and all those influences and I am so grateful. He is also jealous enough to have brought me out of the false faith of Catholicism to Sola Scriptura Pentecostalism truth, solid in maintaining Trinitarian doctrine.
I am also grateful that he is a righteous God, perfectly righteous. What do I mean by that? I mean his righteousness is two fold. First his justice and righteousness are absolute, and second his mercy, redemption through clause, as well as ongoing sanctification via the Holy Spirit. I am 100% in accordance with this and his standards of perfect holiness, absolute justice etc.. to be able to live in his presence and in heaven. That is absolutely the kind of God I wish to serve, very firm, rules are rules, but I have a mercy clause. However, you have to freely accept it to avail yourself of it, as you are a free will agent. If you refuse it, then you pay the penalty of your crimes, period. I am in awe of his perfect system of governance on every level and in everything.
The entirety of Yahweh’s plan, all of it is something I am very grateful for and always will be. Pity that is took me so long to really get it.
About the Author: Born in New Jersey, August 1965, this Italian-American, raised mainly by her resilient and strong Catholic mother, a path she has left behind for conservative Pentecostalism, has always had a great interest in music, particularly the Oldies, Clean and inspiring Christian, Clean Country and Ethnic music, including Irish. For over 10 years Rev. Katherine Appello taught ESL to students of varying ages. Grounded if her Christian faith and spirituality, Katherine endured a range of issues, including a great deal of pain, which was finally diagnosed to be associated with Fibromyalgia. The essence and the power of music, of words, allow Katherine to overcome these struggles each and every time. You can find her on the web at http://ministryoftheheartofchrist.com or http://www.youtube.com/user/kappellonewyorkarts1