In 2006, I got a job offer to work for a small family owned company selling services to the federal government. The company came looking for me and recruited me because they were impressed with my past performance. As a subcontractor, I had done some work with them to deliver a Request for Proposal to their government client.
At first, I wasn’t sure if I should go back to work; after all, I was following my calling. Since I wasn’t looking for this opportunity, I thought this may be an unexpected blessing from God. The offer was tempting because in an effort to establish my business, I had depleted my savings. So I took the matter to God in prayer. Should I keep following my passion or go back to work? His response seemed simple; He told me, that if I went back to work, I would get an education. That seemed like a good thing; however, I would later learn the true meaning of those words. God had a plan for my life.
"For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the LORD, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope." Jeremiah 29:11
The courtship was great, but I soon discovered that there is a difference between dating and marriage. In a very short time, the honeymoon was over. It was one of the most hateful and demoralizing experiences I’ve ever had. The corporate culture was marked by nepotism and favoritism. I quickly learned that it was difficult to get help, guidance, or support. I dreaded going to work every morning and couldn’t wait to leave each evening; that was no way for me to live. I lasted ten months in that oppressive environment. I ended up losing my job and all I could feel was relief.
After that, I was ready to do what God was calling me to do. Each and every time I think about doing things my way, I’m reminded of that ten month long lesson. I indeed got an education. I learned to trust God.
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” Proverbs 3:5-6
So why am I writing about losing a job in a post about being thankful? It’s simple; when God told me I would get an education, I had no idea He was talking about an education in faith and trust. He allowed me to veer off the path so I could get a taste of what it’s like to abandon my purpose. Now, every time I begin to think that the money is getting tight or that I need to do something else because the promise isn’t manifesting fast enough, I get flashbacks of my little detour. The knot in my stomach reminds me to stay the course.
I’m thankful for life experiences like these. They are truly great teachers.
I'm thankful for my mistakes. I’ve learned much more from them than my successes.
I'm thankful for where I am right now. I’ve learned to be grateful and to embrace my life as a work in progress.
I’m thankful that God is my constant companion.
I’m thankful that God continues to bless me and provide for me.
I’m thankful for His abiding word.
I hope to encourage someone who is ready to give up on their dream to hang in there a little longer. God wouldn’t have given you the vision unless He intended to make the provision. I stand on that promise for my business and my ministry.
“Through the LORD’s mercies we are not consumed, because His compassions fail not. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.” Lamentations 3:22-23
I’m thankful that I am His child and that He has a purpose for my life!