This week I was placed in a situation where I had to say no. This is one of the words that women trouble themselves not to say even when it is necessary.
Being qualified to teach a bible study class, I was asked by my pastor if I would teach. Giving me the curriculum, I spent the evening and part of the next day looking it over. Already committed to several areas in the church I felt it was necessary to decline. But I was afraid.
In the past I would have agreed, while showing a happy face at church. At home, however, I would have been crying and seething in anger from being over worked. But this time was different. Simply knowing in my heart through prayer and asking, I knew this wasn't the best time for me to teach this particular class. I drove all the way to church to let me pastor know. Handing him the book, he asked me what I thought. I simply told him I wasn't able to do teach the class because I would be doing it for the wrong reasons.
Looking at me with genuine concern, he asked gently if he could ask the reasons. I told him that I wasn't teaching the class because I honestly felt like I wasn't serving the Lord, but I felt like I would have taught the class to please people in the church. With a grin and a genuine smile he agreed with me and appreciated my honesty.
I haven't always been an authentic Christian. I have made my Peter mistakes and represented something on the outside that wasn't on the inside. Knowing the Lord is working on me through honest relationships and fair expectations, I believe the Lord helped me from going around a mountain again; one of which I had been rounding for years.
Prayer: Lord help me to live an authentic Christian walk to your glory alone.